who you are

I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf ...
"no,no, no, no..."

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
(Who you are)x11

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould , yeah!
The more I try the less it's working yeah yeah yeah
Cause everything inside me screams, "no,no,no,no..."

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos
Fake shows like woah
Just go, and leave me alone
Real talk real life
Good love goodnight
With a smile that's my home
That's my home

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Who you are

jessie j-who you are.

i realised this lyrics is a reminder of myself by not losing the real me.its true that my mind is messed up and im trying hard to get over it.hopefully i will.

are you jia yi?

hello world,i'm back. its been in a while and now i'm having a four month holiday if i surprisingly pass all the modules.this post is just to report my whereabout and gonna blog more often than usual if im not lazy k?haha gonna promise myself.alright been a almost 3 months misery and maybe it still goes on.its really an awful experience and a good one i would say. everything taught me a lesson and of course there are regrets.if someone give me a pill that remove all my memories,i seriously will take that,too painful for me.but im trying hard to survive and hopefully i will. i want to find that wild and laugh like nobody business jia yi.i think she is missing recently.anyway gonna be in my sweet home for 4 months and hopefully i will get my internship and have fun.anybody free and just find me any time.im free for anything.

still same old word.trust.

trust is everything.

if you trust me,then you know i didn mean it .

if you dont trust me,then no matter what i do still can't change everything.

and still hoping you trust me.

Mind is blown.

Yes. My mind is blown by all the thoughts.

and lately cant seem to find my real self.its all the other side of me.the cautious one.
I have to admit i am a super sensitive human being ever in this world.
It's totally not ok to have this ability,it just blow your mind away and you can't seem to concentrate anything surrounds you.
and after all this,i finally realise that its all me.
Its the perfection that i looking for,its me who being so greedy wanting everything that exist.
i was so wrong in the first place.thought its gonna be a smooth and a happy journey.
I thought that everything is just gonna happen as what i think and said.
sadly,the most important thing in this uni for me is no longer exist.
is this 4 years gonna be memorable as high school?i doubt that but i still cant deny anything yet.
things just changes second by second and you never know.
I'm not trying to be emo here just that the circumstances now makes me think is there any purpose Im being in this place?
to become a great pharmacist?to meet great friends and go through this 4 years together?
Its just some random day without class.I wont remember this day but i will remember this blog when i read back in the future.
no doubt misses my high school and college buddies.
miss that kind of feeling when the eye contacts between us is so real.
Its me who cause myself miserable and desperate,but too bad I dont have cure for that.
all I can do is to heal myself one day by one day.try not to think too much.


i do want to jump to the sea now all by myself and stay under the sea as long as possible.
Im not trying to commit suicide here.not that stupid.haha
but helping myself to clear my mind a litttle.
hoping to redefine my life now.
dont laugh at me or thought im being emo or some psycho,im sure you gonna been through this stage just like me.

Crap everything.

As you can see from my title,yes.you are thinking the right way.

Imma gonna crap everything in this post.

So just bear with me cos really in the mood of blogging but have no specific stuff to write.

So just came back from jungle with Cindy,my current course mate and gang mate and ex primary school mate.

I gotta said the journey was great as 2 girls talking non-stop(well,I am suppose to sleep cos i was so freaking tired but the driver kept talking to me)LOL.

nah.the fact is I just afraid that she might doze off while driving and the only to keep me alive is to talk to her.LOL.

So the only point that i want to mention about her driving skill is fast although she kept saying she drive very slow.not gonna mention the duration we used from jungle to jb.

I scared u might think we having f1 competition.

before that,two of my beloved friends came to jungle out of nowhere is like President of United states come to notts to give a speech.no he can and yes they can.bought them to have 2 of the best foods in jungle.hope they love it.

and really hope that we have more outings like this and save me from boredom.thankyouverymuch.

and 100ft deep down in my heart really appreciated that they came.

one last thing that i want to talk about is I just realise they are so many people private-kan their blogs.

I really want to do that too but if i do that,whats the difference with writing a diary.

dont tell me that typing save more energy than writing.no excuse.

Somehow I just want to leave my blog open and really hope that there are only few reader cos i dont want it to be many too.

gonna end this lame post by posting a quote.

somehow all this quotes are one of the motivation that kept me moving forward.

worry is the misuse of the imagintaion.

how to kill boredom?

So mind sharing how to kill boredom?

apparently I had a long weekend which I spent all my time in the room watching Prison Break.

Indeed worth to rewatch again but not at the moment.

Just finished prison break the second time and I already forgot that Michael died in the end,

so thats make me even sad.

I really cannot believe myself i got nothing to do.REALLY.

maybe i haven find the 'connection' here yet.good luck with it.

and ride with me.

the feel is back.

Im here to announce that im back to blogging career again.

I have no idea why the urge is getting stronger each day but I will deal with it

because there is no way i'm gonna blog now as exam is just around the corner.

and everyone please say a big welcome to 2011.

2010 passed so fast like im dont even notice it.

new year resolution??

hopefully i can pass all the exams and successfully enter the 2nd year.

well,i guess i dont have much time now and shall see you soon.

To be continued...

6 . 4 . 1991

To someone that say me lame for thousands times....
Happy Birthday to you.
and every year we cant get rid of the primary school issue isn't?LOL
Most important thing is you are my longest friend ever for now.
and it continues......
and I never regret of knowing you.
I know true friends are the one who always call you a bitch, loser, weird, lamer etc.
and know that you are not serious.
and I treasure a friend like you.
and I wont tell you I posted this until you found it.LOL(copy you)
Happy birthday again and have a blast.
stay cool,and I always uncool.
I love you .

hello!!!

Its been a long long long time i din update my blog.
so sorry guys....being lazy in this time ...haha...
my life is fine and its been a long time been in touched with high school friends....
kind of miss those time....

btw...wanna introduce this song.

FAR MORE by honorary title

is a totally great song.
heard from OTH SEASON 5..
go check it up if u free.
see you soon.

What a boring holiday

As i thought my holiday will be very interesting and many many outings...
in fact,it was very very boring.....
i need hang out,girls!!!!!

Im back.

i know its a bit too late to sya im abck from Cameron Highlands...
lol...btw...i just came back on last Sunday.
it was a fun trip and really enjoy the trip with my family.
and actually i didn know my dad wantedto go Club Med....
I wont go Cameron if i know he wanted to go there...=-=..
and this week really kill me...
all the lectures and holiday just keep ruining my concentration.
having class right after such huge exam really isnt a good idea and bad for us,
to Mrs Programme Director.....LOL....
AH...i didn even plan for my holiday....all i know is im gonna be a "HOUSEGIRL"
doing all the house chores by MYSELF...
beleive me,live in such a huge house and being one of the owner of this house do not have anything to show off...
what to do???no money to pay for the maid and she ran away.....
haix...i think my friends will shock to see me washing toilet at anytime..lol
and I missed Angeline"s birthday party..
i bet must be really really fun..
and Angeline,happy belated birthday!!!!
gonna stop here....
see u guys.
sep all my jb peeps,wait for me!!!!lets hang out!!!

JOGOYA TRIP

Hello everybody,I just went back from town again.
btw..this is my second time went to town within 3 days.
finally,after millions of suggestion to jogoya,we make it to there....haha...
we can clap hands for that...LOL
there are me,Linda,Jane,Amy ,Kah ling went to jogoya.
so after school we straight went to town by ktm and monorail..
then we went to starhill gallery to book the seat.
after that,we went Pavillion to have window shopping and
I FOUND HAVAIANAS SLIPPERS AT MOOKS...
i was so excited about it.
then they keep camwhoring.....
camwhore and camwhore....
until 6pm,we headed to Jogoya.
at first,i thought it was very expensive...
luckily,we go for the promotion package which the second ladies get 50% discount!!!
so,each lady costed RM 65.
It was a huge japanese buffet and all the foods have auqlity and quantity...lol
well,the food there was not bad..and I think is worth for me
because i just grabbed everything...
but i thik if you come 3 times also cannot finish trying the food there...
its so many variety...and Haagen-Dazs!!!!
so when everybody almost full,we started to drink wine!!!
we just keep drinking and taking pictures and
just because kah ling and my faces get red easily.
and they assume we are drunk....
btw..we managed to reach home early..
thanks to Amy's sister for fetching us back.
what a fun and exhausted trip!!!!!

amy,jane,kah ling



is a quite dark..but that is a nice place to camwhore!!

linda and amy

Jane must be looking for his future husband..

i think they are trying to copy my move...

me..i like!!lol

this ppl copycat too!!

this is a nice picture!!!

jane and linda

me and kah ling

me,kah ling,jane,linda,amy

kah ling

me,nicholas and amy

jane and linda

amy,jane and kah ling

she asked me to take this.

us!!!

our first picture for the trip at ktm!!!

they are looking for presents to drop...

kahling,me and amy


Pavillion main entrance

SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN

this is probably the first time i only officially rest for 2 days and starts school again after 6 weeks of crazy exam.
see...A -level students cannot get a rest man...
now we know why 75 percent of students in taylors who went to see school psychologist are A level student!!!lol....
and I m late to school the second time....
haix...maybe cos of yst watched drama until 3am..and slept until 10am which my class is at 10am
and the same ppl who called to wake me up just like the first time im overslept...
thanks Linda...lol....and where am i now?????
lol..Starbucks!!!!this is my first time went Starbucks without a single book..
i feel Awesome as i can just come here to have a cup of green tea latte and online without any pressure of study!!!!!!cool!!!!but i think this is the last time..lol
btw,Totttenham scored 9 goals versus Wigan..
Wigan goalkeeper maybe having nightmare right now...

walking queen=US!!!

ok,u guys are probably wondering why my blog title is this????
lol....ok...so out of a sudden,kp asked me wanna go klcc or not?
so Im said yes and asked gg to come along too!!!
so 3 of us went klcc to shop at 3pm.
we had Nandos as our lunch and we started WALKING...
and see almost all the shop which we cannot afford to buy..so kp decided to change place...
then we sat taxi to PAVILLION and WALKED TOO...
it really has no place suits us....
and we change place again....SUNGEI WANG...
then kp said...very hot leh should have go to Times Square...
then we went Times square...walk walk walk
again walk walk walk
and we decided to go home...=-=
so those are the pics that took at Pavillion..enjoy.










what is jq doing???lol

Liverpool draw AGAIN!!!

OMG,CANNOT BELIEVE WHY LIVERPOOL IS STILL IN THIS KIND OF SITUATION!!!
wadever lah,i think i shall watch liverpool playing from next season..lol
haix..i think im having PMS right now...so have emotionally unstable...
k....this is my second post after my exam...
yesterday just right after exam..we straight went to sunway pyramid(where else can we go)
had lunch at THAI THAI,the food isint really nice and is damn spicy.
and also EXPENSIVE.
so people,dont go there anymore.
so,after lunch,we headed to REDBOX for 3 hours.
and after that we watched 2012 which all my peeps are waited so long to watch this movie.
great piece!!!!!nice movie tech and it makes me nervous although im watching the second time...
so until now i still cant get why got ppl say not nice..maybe they expect too high....
so I was in Sunway pyramid from 10am to 10pm!!!
amazing right?
after had my favourite BASKIN ROBINS flavour-citrus,I am so exhausted and cant wait to go home.
ok,i want post a picture so that u guys wont get bored with all the tiny little words....
enjoy.

this picture taken by peacock and that day was not Yi Ping birthday actually,but we bought her a cake after she came back from JB.
btw,i hope i updated my blog to let you guys read but not myself...lol.
bye.see u tmr.

10am to 10pm

hello ppl,as i promise i gonna update my post everyday from today!!!!!
i finally finished my long ever exam which is 6 WEEKS!!!
ah!!!!one month freedom for me to enjoy and I gonna start apply my universities...
so can u guys decide for me what i want to do????

1.medecine
2.pharmacy
3.chemical engineering

3 choices left and i think i gonna make a choice before next year...
if everyone feels bored or smth,can just talk to e because im just too free!!!!!

exam faster finish!!!!

people wait .....wait .....wait for me to update!!!!lol

hello!!!

hello world and peeps!!!!
its been a really long time that i type in this little box....
as i said..i promise to update my blog everyday....hehe...
but I also didn know who will read this post...
ah...now everyone blog is so dead...
ppl?
are you still there???

Im so sorry

Im so sorry that my blog looked so dead...
haix..busy preparing for my as exam loh...
dun worry..i will be update my blog after my exam very soon....
stay in tune.

Im just wanted to say...

Im gonna miss jb so much!!!!!

and my lovely friends and family!!!!!!!!!!!!

haix....

update update update...

yoyo everyone,long time no see..
due to my laziness...this blog is so dead and nobody is gonna read right now...
btw...quite a busy holiday...
2 outings with friends and 1 outing with family which have alot of picture...
yet due to my laziness and i didn update....LOL
btw..my house got 2 new cars at a car...i know is shiok...
and just went to kp blog and saw her new hairstyle!!!
omg...it makes my mouth nearly break into half...
it happens the first time in my life...
omg..u all should go see tay kai ping blog...
her hair............OMG.